For about 10 seconds sy kaku tadi. My eyes was staring at the monitor and my hands paused. As I was in my non-moving moments, I was thinking "Ok, write about this 10 seconds" (It was actually only 6-7secs). So there you go, an exaggerated story. But really, dlm 3-4 hari ni i'm a bit disturbed. With work and some other things. I haven't been reading much so far this year and those words from all the books I read last year keep coming to me, but most of the time I ignore them. Not purposely, but still I ignored them.
Now I guess it wasn't a bad idea at all to climb Mt.Kinabalu (this Friday!!). It is actually a good idea utk buat something different. To be exhausted, to be with friends, to be with family, to be free, to be young and to be on top -----> of the world.
I must not limit myself. I just have to do it. I can feel that I'm limiting myself, but that maybe a good thing. I mean to realize that I'm limiting myself so I will do something about it. Owh sanity please come back to me, I need you.
It's funny that as I'm typing now, I came to realize (again), that I need guidance. I need a mentor. And I'm now reminded of a song I wrote titled "
Solace Of Mind". Yes what I need is solace, peace and yeah I need to be organized. I need to be organized now!! To clean up those untidyness, finish up the small-small undone works, to know what I need to do and complete next. Damn am I really that messed up??

Thank God I'll be taking a short break di Ranau this weekend. There are so many things/ideas in my mind right now, ideas for BBKK, for Infinatez and many many other things. Now I will need to put aside dulu those many many other things coz I think that may also be the reason yg sy x focus.
Organize yourself. Is that the keyword? Tadi I thought that I will feel more relieved, tiba2 ada tersumbat pula ni otak. Ok I think I know why, no no...it's not just that, ada byk lagi sebab. Tarik nafas, hembus...tarik lagi then hembus.
I need to break that wall in front of me. I want to break it!! I've tried breaking it, now I just have to do it differently.
I'm not done yet, I will be back.